Nothing Here

Nothing Here,

Everything is painful,
And everything hurts,
Your words are like whips,
they leave scars that you will never see.
My past is harsh,
Lies were definitely told,
You remind me over and over again,
until all I can see is the pain you feel.
I hurt you and I know,
Stop telling me,
Stop trying to tell me I haven't changed,
Stop acting like you've been around the entire time,
Stop pretending that you are perfect and did no wrong,
Stop speaking harshly of me because of my mistakes,
I love you and all you can do is hurt me,
All you can see is my flaws,
All you do is call me out on what I did,
All I can say is I'm sorry,
but all you believe is the lies.
Nothing gets through to you,
You only believe what you want to,
I can't reach you and it tears me apart,
Tears are always streaming down my cheeks,
I only feel lost without you,
and you only insist that we aren't meant to be.
Why is it that love is never enough?
Why is it impossible for me to change in your eyes?
I'm not the monster I used to be,
and even if I was, you still loved me,
I truly thought that forever meant forever,
I guess it never really is.