For you

For you,

You need to be with somebody that loves you no matter what,
somebody that won't ignore you just because you did something she disliked,
trusts you with all her heart,
gives you the freedom you need,
knows everything about you and still accepts you,
 and has patience and genuine care for you.
This isn't about me, this is about you
You need someone in your life to help you GROW as a strong and independent person,
to get you off the depression medication and to show you that life is great,
that life has tons to offer other than sex, school, drugs and a broken family.
Whether that person just be a friend or a girlfriend, you still need it.
You're not alone in everything and I've TRIED to be there ever single step on the way when you let me be.
I'll be there even when you don't want me to be, or don't need me to be.
I'm not going to leave or give up, I'm going to watch you be a strong person
and help you anytime you need it, talk to you about anything and everything.
I've been through it all and probably more.
I know you don't believe that I have changed,
and I'm not going to try to force a belief on you if you don't believe it,
but that will never change my feelings for you,
you can trash me as much as possible, spit in my face, anything,
but I'm not going to leave you by yourself.
You loved me and trusted me all during our relationship,
and it is time I pay you back and thank you for every single time
that I couldn't stand on my own,
every talk we had and every time you would talk to me and just hold me when I was upset.
I never told you how much it meant to me, and I know it didn't seem like it at the time but
it meant the world to me.
I truly lived FOR you each day,
I'm afraid I would have ended my life and you literally saved me whether you know it or not.
And for that the debt is unrepayable, but I can only try.
I'm not going to break you and your girlfriend up no matter what I feel,
I can only advise you to seek someone better for you, that can help you and tell your secrets to.
I can get upset sometimes because we're not together and I know that..
Our break up was just painful for both of us and we lift it in shatters..
It's time that we need to start over and give complete forgiveness to each other.
Forgive and forget, I've already done it. I think it's your turn now.
Now for the past, I can't ever go back and I wish I could.
Just don't remind me anymore, I feel terrible about it and it is a guilt I will never outlive,
I can only tell you I'm sorry a billion times and prove to you through time that I will
never be that same person again.
I've made many mistakes in my life, but the one mistake I never made was falling in love with you.
You've made me change as a person, in a great way,
you've made me see the meaning of life, and love, and pain (don't feel bad I need to learn pain).
Just remember that you have made mistakes too,
I don't bring them up and I don't carry anger towards them,
be considerate and forgive me like I've done for you.
It doesn't matter if your mistakes were done for revenge, they still happened on your own whim.
I'm still here no matter what through thick and thin.
I've become an amazing person with a bright future and I want you to have the same,
no girlfriend should ever pull you down like she is doing.
I know you love her but sometimes you must take a step back and look,
which is exactly what I'm doing for you,
but no matter what I say, everything is your own decision and I'm behind you 100% of the way.
I do plan on re-gaining your parents trust, one way or another
They can't judge me from the past, because that is and never will be me again.
I feel so much better and live now-a-days, the only reason I cry anymore is because I miss you
unbearably.
But that's my own fault honestly, I did try to get over you, I really did..
but reminders are everywhere, and I can't hide from my feelings and dreams.
My love for you is overwhelming, I constantly feel as if I should share every happy thing,
every happy moment that happens to me, with you..
I'm sorry for ever hurting you, for ever treating you harshly, for making you feel unappreciated.
You never deserved that, and still don't.
I loved you every step of the way and am so grateful that you were in my life
and saw me in my worst but still treated me like a princess.
I honestly haven't looked at any person in a romantic way since we broke up,
nobody can compare or compete.
there is only you and if you were ever in my spot and wanted a second chance,
I would give it to you, no doubt about it.
I am in love with you, whether you like it or not.
I'm not crazy, just so in love.
I cry every time we don't talk, every minute, every second..
The best thing in my life is seeing your name pop up on my phone.
Life seems so lacking, incomplete without you,
like the sun just isn't so bright anymore,
and the smiles are just too easily forced.
I just thought you should know, that I am in love with you.
Don't try to tell me I'm wrong, when everything feels so right.
I don't know if the wrong I have done can ever be forgotten, or forgiven
but I will do whatever it takes,
just for you.